| | I'm really hoping that no one i know reads this. And I really actually know that no one remembers or even cares about this site of mine any more so what the hell.
Just a few moments ago, I cried the most I have ever cried in my life. And well, now i just don't want to go anywhere, look at anything or do anything..I don't even want to talk or think about it too much cos I'm so afraid of having a break down. But the weirdest thing is, I chose this. This was my decision. My making. I hope that everything falls into place.. like it usually does. But what if it doesn't? What if I have just made the biggest mistake of my life.. Because it does sure feel like it..
My greatest fear is.. regret.
"If it's meant to be, it's meant to be.." But have you ever stopped and just said to yourself.. "I could have made it "meant to be". I could have.."Do you really believe in fate? Do I?
I'm totally lost..
All I know is that God has a plan.
Please, Lord God.
I feel so guilty for only calling on to you when I am in need, or when I am troubled. But please don't let this be a reason for me to be discouraged.
Oh what a day..
Oh, and i have a humongous pimple on my nose which has yet to get bigger due to my failed attempt of popping it.
|
| | Posted 1/18/2008 11:26 PM - 2 Views - 0 eProps - 0 comments
- recommend
  - recs0
- share
- email
 - sent0
|
